Why My Health Journey is Important…

It took years of trial and error to get it all right, to figure it all out.

Like many other patients, it takes YEARS to diagnose systemic chronic illnesses. The hunt for all the answers didn’t come easy, and it seemed like it all came on at once, feeding this information to me like you would rice to a mouse. Little did we know at the time, I was living with part of it, without my knowledge for nearly all my life.

The mold started growing in my house in 2013-2014 after the tornado hit our house. So the exposure to the mold didn’t exasperate until 2014. However, in 2013 I started having GI issues. It wasn’t until 2016 before the swelling started. I was having various issues with pain in my neck, my back, my arms. I was cake decorating at night as my family slept. I chalked it up to getting less sleep, and aging, like arthritis type symptoms. I would lay down or take a break or nap when pain got to be too much, depending on what my schedule allowed of course.

Throughout the process of getting everything ironed out, the more we realized my final diagnosis of Mast Cell Activation Syndrome, was very much so, the ORIGINAL diagnosis I had, that we are thinking may have been a birth given ailment. Why does my practitioner and I say that? I would have EXAGERRATED symptoms for things such as rashes and bug bites, sometimes sending me to the hospital as an infant, and perplexed my poor parents.

With pregnancy, when I found out on this day 23 years ago, April Fool’s Day, it was a crash course into going from my everyday clothes to pregnancy clothes in less than 2 weeks, I looked 6 months pregnant. When I discovered “something was amiss” that day, I had broken out in hives after eating a granola bar, a brand and flavor that I had eaten a bazillion times before. These hives were huge and white and fluffy going all up my right arm. I thought it was the granola bar, now I realize it was most likely the pregnancy. Even called my cousin on my mother’s side about my hives, and she said she had broken out in hives when she found out she was pregnant, so take a test, so I did.

Honestly, my body acted like it was allergic to the pregnancy. I was 186 lbs when I discovered I was pregnant, and ended at 256 lbs when I gave birth. In less than 2 weeks at my follow up appointment I was already back to my prepregnancy weight. Explain that one. During the c-section, I had almost died twice, my heart had stopped, and then I stopped breathing, my anesthesiologist bill was $25,000 and that was 23 years ago. My response to the narcotics was like an overdose, over exaggerated responses, and I’m still allergic to narcotics to this day.

I can actually pinpoint many other times that MCAS could explain the reactions to various illnesses that I have experienced throughout my life. So it was the first ailment, but the last to be diagnosed. First it was, your just full of shit, so I went through three months of human Drain-o, with no probiotics, that gave me lovely SIBO (Small Intestine Bacterial Overgrowth), which once we got rid of that mess (it nearly took a full two years), I had already had all kinds of other things going haywire.

All the sudden my ovaries had started popping cysts like crazy. Even crazier than that, although the GI infection was gone, I was still SWOLLEN. I still looked pregnant. That’s when the gynecologist had stumbled upon the fact that I had fibroids in my uterus and it had expanded to seven times it’s size. So, this required a hysterectomy. During the exploration and testing of prepping me for that surgery, is when they did the cystoscopy to discover I had Interstitial Cystitis of the bladder. The hysterectomy had confirmed everything we already knew, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, Endometriosis, Fibroids. I never tried to have another biological child after the first one almost killed me, so by the age of 40, I was set in my ways that this was not even an option.

I still was miserable, I was more lightweight, but the pain was still overwhelming, and I was losing functions and having seizures. My hands stopped working, one day, I lost the ability to use my left leg, none of it made sense, but some of that was the direct result of my being exposed to the toxic mold in my house, this in turn sent me to a neurologist.

While waiting for the Neurologist to finally get to see me, I did happen to manage to get myself into Cleveland Clinic, to a Rheumatologist, that was confirmed that I had Fibromyalgia while I was there. Neat, add that to the list of crazy.

The Neurologist did some testing and verified I receive 10x the pain signals that a normal human does. In fact, I was instructed I wasn’t supposed to be in that much pain everyday, that not everyone experiences pain at this threshold. I was stunned. There’s a baseline? There’s people out there that wake up and just feel good in their skin? That’s a possibility? I was stupefied honestly.

So an MRI was performed, and it was discovered that I’m missing a substantial amount of white matter, and I was displaying all the signs and symptoms of dementia, and then I was scheduled to see a psychiatrist for dementia evaluation. There was my fate.

Once I ended up in the hospital with a yeast overgrowth, and the Dr funneled in antifungals through that IV, I regained my functions in my body, and my brain. I walked out of the hospital 100% more a person than I went in and had been in nearly 3 years. I went home with the suspicion that after a yeast overgrowth that bad, that it was destroying my brain, there HAD to be mold somewhere in my house, so I tore a wall open in my garage and found it. Had it tested, and there was the stacchybotrys, trying to kill me.

At that moment my practitioner and I had experienced a medical journey like no other patient and physician had, my file is so large it doesn’t even fit in a binder. (I’ve shortened a few things out of this journey) because I had a few run ins with moldy buildings prior to that but hadn’t made the connection, until I left that hospital, that there was actual an issue in my own home.

So last but not least, I was still displaying symptoms of what seemed to be Lyme and I was tested for it, and I was only a few “bars” of DNA or biomarkers away from actually testing positive in which some practitioners use as an indicator for Mast Cell Activation Syndrome. Now MCAS is still fairly new, don’t get me wrong, it’s been around probably for forever, but as far as research discovery, treatments, we are in the first 20 years, it’s going to take a while for refinement in treatment and diagnosis. So the practitioner and I did what was best, treated for Lyme anyway, and immediately I started digging into treating the Mast Cell Activation Syndrome on my own.

I will eventually have dementia, that will come down the pipeline in 20 more years unless I miraculously start growing my brain cells back. You however, had better BET as soon as I had the ability to focus and pay attention, I haven’t stopped researching my medical conditions, my charts and all the things that have to do with every diagnosis I have received and probably will until my brain stops me again. So that is where I am at! If you read this entire blog entry to the finale, I applaud you. It was HARD to live through, and it’s most definitely hard to read someone babble about it all. Best part of it is, I live entirely this day with all these chronic illnesses with no prescription assistance at the moment, a few supplements and over the counters. I’m damn proud of that, and I will share that to anyone who is willing to hear it. ❤ Much Love!

Brain Fog, Memory Loss: Memories and how to keep them…

Why Neurogenesis and taking notes are so very important.

“But I love it!” The boy is grasping his paper tube roll with all his might. It is now his prized possession. Kids are hilarious, you can buy them a $50 toy but they would rather play with the boxes they came in, or latch onto the wrapping paper tube that supplied the paper you wrapped said present in.

One of our dearest friends gifted our little man with a wrapping paper tube. This was now his only source of fun. Also, a source of annoyance and bacteria. Talking into the tube, shouting at people, using it as a megaphone of sorts. Poking people, using it as a cane, just like “Dr. House” on the television. Sticking it in muddy floorboard water in the vehicle on the trip home and licking it like an ice cream cone. Arguing that now he needs to SLEEP with it. Arguing he wants to take it everywhere with him, oh to be four again.

These are memories that would have been forever lost for me had I not written them down. Also a habit that once I formed it, I continued to do even when I was sick. They are scattered about in notebooks, stored in files on my NOTE on my phone, and various other places. Had I not formed this habit early on, I wouldn’t be able to supply you with the valuable history and information in how I navigated my chronic illness and beat my death date of 5 years. It’s been an entire YEAR from the date I was supposed to meet my demise.

I also began a log of sorts for my kids when I was given the approximation, I only got a few pages in for both of kids at home, logging memories for them that I had scattered about, until I “forgot” about that project. In hopes that if I did meet my demise, that they would have cherished memories I had written down in my own handwriting for them to keep forever. Out of all the advice I can give you parents, I pray that you listen to me on this. If you are not doing that, I beg of you to do it now, because as the old adage goes, “TOMORROW IS NEVER PROMISED.”

Yep, this is my brain, with all the black voids.

The really cool part is, I had enough gumption to keep a running list of medications, and supplements I was managing, and a list of all my doctors, neatly typed on a few sheets of paper stapled and attached to any new business cards or information I had to add to the list in my “drug purse” at all times, to take everywhere with me. This came in handy for a few ER visits, and every doctor visit I had to attend by myself, when there wasn’t a caretaker with me. It would have also been even handier had I been totally incapable of doing anything or communicating at all. **Another piece of advice for you or your loved ones if you are suffering from chronic, systemic, or fatal illness. ** My goal was to stay alive long enough, to figure it out, even if no one could do it for me. I had given up a lot of hope that anyone was going to be able to save my life before my demise, so with what little energy I had, I put all my effort into figuring out my body for myself, with my regular practitioner along for the ride. (His file on me cannot even fit in a 4-inch binder.)

Solidly I can contribute my survival on my desperate need to figure out the answers that no one seemed to be able to give me. They could placate symptoms with a ton of different drugs, but I wasn’t okay with dying, not yet. Neat little fact for the ones who don’t personally know me, I was in the automotive field for years, I have a mechanical engineering type frame of mind. If there is one thing I know for certain, there has to be a CORE issue to what was causing ALL of these issues, and even with the MRIs it still took me two years to conclude, that first and foremost my brain damage, could wholly be my issue. A friend in the medical field mentioned to me once that they had read, scientists had figured out how to regenerate brain matter. Shortly after there was another friend who birthed a son. No one knew until he started walking that something wasn’t “quite right” he had a limp. Several tests later and an MRI shown that the frontal cortex of his left brain was entirely missing, he was born that way. However, funny thing, nothing else seemed to be wrong, his brain started to rewire itself around what he was born with. If you need a sign, that was the sign I needed to not give up. I went to work researching like a mad woman, and I had the attention span of a gnat, and the big words confused me, most of it didn’t make sense, but when something did click, you bet your ass, I was taking notes on it until I came to a conclusion or a dead end, or I found a supplement to TRY to see if it would get me anywhere. I REFUSED to listen, I REFUSED to submit to a fate that I did not want, and here I am.

One thing I had to be careful about supplements was not falling for all the combination supplements out there. I had Interstitial Cystitis, I had to be very choosy about the things I put in my body, as to not aggravate my bladder. Funny thing, my bladder was the source of my heartburn, but it was also the source of my asthma. I VERY rarely ever have to use my MONTEKULAST (but I still keep it on hand, just in case) or my rescue inhaler in nearly four years. Even through the pandemic, I didn’t even need it when I got the second strain, my symptoms were very mild and short lived. I always choose supplements which I know the composition inside and out, and trust me, my feeds were blowing up with “miracle” supplements for everything. It seems so much easier to take ONE PILL, right? Nope, not this girl who’s allergic to ALL THE BULLSHIT.

My focus became figuring out how to repair my nervous system and create neurogenesis. (Or at least simulate it.) Again, I’m not a doctor, and I won’t even know until probably next year whether or not I really did anything to the white matter that is missing in that thick skull of mine. However, I do know, that I am a100% a functioning human compared to where I was at in 2019. I still do have massive migraines and headaches from time to time (I like to think that it’s just brain matter growing back, I don’t care if it’s denial. I’m stubborn). Mast Cell Activation will be a thing forever as far as I know. I still have fibromyalgia (at times) it keeps getting less and less though, Interstitial Cystitis may be something I will have forever, and a little neuropathy, I am able to navigate all of these successfully without outside help of prescription medications, and I’m damn proud of that. I’m here TODAY in the process of writing a book, a blog, and teach others there is HOPE, and you don’t always have to submit to placating yourself with a bunch of crazy medications the doctors hand you if you don’t really have to or want to. My favorite part of all of it, I can read and understand, and REMEMBER everything except TWO years, where I have to almost rely solely on most of my notes. MIND OVER MATTER PEOPLE!!! Quite literally, I have more mind than matter, I believe. Ha!

“NEUROGENESIS – DEFINITION

the birth of new neurons. Although most neurogenesis occurs before birth, it is also recognized to continue into adulthood in at least two areas: the hippocampus and the subventricular zone.”

https://neuroscientificallychallenged.com/glossary/neurogenesis

Interstitial Cystitis: Sex & Stuff

More information you probably didn’t want to know, but if you found this page, you suffer, and I understand.

For most IC sufferers, it becomes not only painful to urinate, but painful to have sexy time. No one wants the once enjoyable, to become not enjoyable anymore. There are a few things that have helped me. Since I am also a Mast Cell Activation sufferer, and allergic to most meds, and narcotics, I have had to do things naturally, find out what works, and go from there.

**Note: I have attached links to the images and titles on this page to direct link you to Amazon for your convenience. If you choose to order.

CHRONIC PAIN

Chronic pain has been the hardest thing to beat for me. I also have Fibromyalgia, and Neuropathy. I can feel EVERYTHING, and it is multiplied almost ten times by what my neurologist has tested me to be. I’ve been very fortunate to learn that RUTIN and NARIGIN can actually assist in Neurogenesis and actually help with depression-like symptoms. Always feed your brain and neurological system first. Assist them in any way you can. Most of us with systemic illnesses suffer so much that we NEED the pick me up. Being slowly tortured never helped anyone.

I highly recommend that you invest in your Nervous System, and your brain, in feeding it the bioflavonoids it needs to combat the depression, and repair inflammation in your nervous system as well!

WHAT ARE THE WHITE FLAKES IN MY URINE?

To the best of my knowledge, and what was explained to me by my own gynecologist, that is pieces of debris, normally shedding of the lining from your bladder walls. IC, is best described as we lose elasticity in the bladder wall, it shrinks, and then when it expands it tears the inner lining. We don’t reabsorb it, so it has to be expelled. ALWAYS make note that anything out of the ordinary, like physical signs of blood, odor, or discharge be communicated to your doctor promptly!

SEXY TIME – TURN Pain into Pleasure

Tips are stop using any artificial lubricants, those can quickly irritate your urethra and other parts. Essentially you have a bladder that is raw open wound, you do not want to rub salt, preservatives, or anything on an open wound on your body, so don’t do it to your bladder. Use a natural lubricant, before, during, and reapply after intercourse. Make it a standard practice, and ultimately you benefit. There are many natural lubricants, but the best effective ones are ALOE BASED. GOOD CLEAN LOVE has a pleasant smell, and works well. **Remember to diligently both men and women to empty your bladders after any intercourse during clean up.

Aloe Based Lubricants can also be mixed with Coconut Oil and frozen to make a suppository, which is widely recommended by patients. It helps with burning as well as itching. Aloe is naturally antibacterial and antifungal. Which, how lucky are we, that cold pressed coconut oil is as well! These are tried and true practices that most IC sufferers have been doing for years. With anything new, always check with your primary physician before you start or if it will work well for you!

Feel free to read my other blog post about IC: https://allergictoyourbullshit.com/2023/03/14/heartburn-from-hell/

Heartburn from Hell… Interstitial Cystitis

The Disease that 30% of population may have and don’t even know it.

Discovering I had Interstitial Cystitis of the Bladder was truly an eye opener for me. It encouraged me to research, when I had the patience to read (this is a thing, especially when you are critical pain). The craziest part is there is NO TRUE DIAGNOSTIC TESTING for the disease, no known “cause” for said issues, but a multitude of symptoms. OHHHH THE HEARTBURN WAS FIERCE!

Mine was diagnosed by imaging when my gyno was all up in my junk. He took pictures, I mean, we are already there, have a handy camera, and from the outside he said it looked ANGRY, so he took some pictures from the inside. It looked like Freddy Kreuger’s face on a good day. Anyway, I’ll spare you the lunch you ate today or yesterday, and just say, it was REALLY RED and very swollen.

There is research that indicates something to the effect of our tissues losing elasticity as we age that may also cause such a condition. I can buy that as well. I highly recommend you take your Collagen! After all, Collagen is great for your joints and arthritic pain, and for the ladies we enjoy the benefits for hair and nails as well.

In real time Interstitial Cystitis, makes you feel like you have a urinary tract infection, like you have to pee ALL THE TIME, and nothing really comes out, because you constantly feel urgency. Then you dribble a little because you lose functionality when it takes over your bladder, so you got to protect yourself from weeing yourself. Most moms do anyway, those damn sneezes will send you packing your bag to the bathroom to change an entire set of clothes sometimes. Your bladder tissues get agitated, swell up, and tear the inner lining, so it’s very much like rubbing salt in your wound every single time you consume food or drink. If you are immunocompromised, have Mast Cell Activation or severe allergies, pray that you are not eating HIGH histamine foods or citric acid or night shades like bell peppers and tomatoes, there is no hell like a citric acid hitting your shredded raw bladder that I can compare it to.

Let’s get to the HEARTBURN that not even the OTC or prescription medication will touch. There are a few modern drugs on the market right now, neither did much to outweigh the need to stay on them and risk the side effects with all the other medications I was on. Insert my researching how to help myself. This pain is like no other, I couldn’t eat food! I literally would eat at like 3 p.m. in the afternoon and not be able to eat until 3 p.m. the following day because it felt like I had gastroparesis (where food doesn’t go down when it’s supposed to). The food felt like it was still sitting in my esophagus, along with ALL THE ACID. Certainly, it was going to eat a hole in my esophagus at some point.

Desperate, does not begin to describe where I was at this point. Then they hand you a list of foods you can’t eat which is basically everything in our dietary structure today in this world. Telling you to eat all organic food but nothing acidic and the list goes on and on. The one thing that got me the most is there are people who have to go into a Urinary Care Specialist and have Valium or various other pain killing medicines inserted into your bladder with loads of fluid to stretch your bladder to make it stretchy again.

I have Mast Cell Activation, I’m allergic to steroids and narcotics, and oh to boot, your insurance won’t cover a $6K procedure like that every three months. So Good Luck! I’m stubborn, I don’t listen, and I’m frugal…so I decided I could stretch my bladder on my own, after all my body naturally fills it with fluid every second of everyday, so anyone can stretch their own bladder. We can hold out the urgency and suck up the pain and go on a schedule every 2 to 3 hours, if you can hold it just a little bit longer, even better! So that’s the first thing that I did.

Yes, yes, I know, we heard this from our parents when they potty trained us, that it was not a great idea or “healthy” to hold it. I highly recommend if you do this method, you invest in those incontinence pad, panty liners, something to protect you from leaking. My determination of forcing myself onto a schedule has saved me thousands, and when I went to see the Urologist, he told me that I was in much better shape than most of his patients and to keep doing what I was doing.

The pain was a whole other level I still had to cope with. This was harder to tackle. I’m grateful however that my gyno at the time suggested to treat it like an allergic reaction to everything I consume. So that’s just what I did, insert ANTIHISTAMINES. Did you know there are 4 types of antihistamines? As long as you are taking at least and H1 and H2 antihistamine blocker daily, you are protected!

My go to H 1 antihistamine receptor blocker and H 2 antihistamine receptor blocker. Essentially, what saved me was Cetirizine, and Loratadine. With antihistamines I actually have to take 2 Cetirizine, and 3 Famotidine a day, 3 times a day. It will be how I live from now on. I also coupled it with a few more supplements suggested from the group of Mast Cell Patients had suggested work, and that were Aloe Vera Gel Capsules, and Horsetail Grass Capsules. Since 2019, I’ve purchased both of those products 8 times. I have been in a flare up at least 8 times since 2019, and it’s 2023 now. For the most part, I don’t have to take the Aloe or Horsetail unless I’m in a flare up, and when I do, I instantly start taking them three times a day, at the serving suggests on the bottle.

The Bonus to all of that, is the H1 and H2 antihistamines were literally helping my Mast Cell Activation as well, without my knowledge. I take the antihistamines even after a flare daily, that’s why the bottles that I linked here in the blog come with so many. After all, I consume so many antihistamines it seems like it’d be impossible for me to stay awake. On the contrary, I have no problem with that, since I discovered Green Coffee Extract, great polyphenols for my brain, with no jitters or crash. I can’t heart emoji that one enough.

There are two things that I have to avoid at all costs to make sure that I do not have an instant flare up. That is Carbonated Soda of any kind. I have to let the carbonation die down and drink a flat soda, it’s just easier to avoid it. The other is my first love, HOT BREWED COFFEE, Cold brew is safe. Hot brewed releases the oils in the bean, along with the histamine and mold in the bean, so instant histamine reaction. When I started the antihistamines, I was drinking a substantial amount of coffee, so I had to do something!

Anyone who suffers from severe heartburn that nothing seems to touch, male or female, I hope this may help you cure the insane pain that you suffer!

Learning to Survive

The hardest part of living with chronic illnesses is learning to survive it.

These photos are about a month apart in 2019. On the right you can actually see I still had purple in my hair, but as you can also see, there’s significant swelling in my face. Not to mention my eyelids, chronic inflammation is no joke, but it occurs.

Dark circles are a thing that I now live with as well, and “Painting on my Personality” is the phrase I use now, because most of my eyebrows fell out (or turned white), even my eyelashes would follow suit a few times. Lucky for me though, I had a few beard hairs show up as well, three more in fact. Insert my dad into pointing out that I had a beard hair under my chin that I never knew I had at 16, while we are hanging out with my boyfriend out of town at an electronics store. If you want to really torture your teen, do that, thanks Dad. Ha Ha! So, for everyone’s enjoyment in understanding my facial expressions, I do have to reapply my eyebrows when venturing out into public.

Learning to survive was hard though, not the superficial stuff. It was the depression. The never-ending list of growing symptoms. I even had to reach out to a friend for inspiration in how I just didn’t throw in the towel entirely. Their advice, “Find a hobby, keep yourself busy, and find God.” This time, I WANTED TO LISTEN, BECAUSE I WANTED TO LIVE.

I picked up a crochet hook and FORCED myself to crochet and learn to. If I couldn’t speak, and my hands couldn’t make cake, I kept telling myself I would FORCE my tremoring hands to do physical therapy of rebuilding dexterity by crocheting for something to do. I obsessively crochet and still do when it strikes my fancy. Simply teaching myself a pattern and do it long enough so that my hands gained muscle memory was just what I needed.

Then I began to change my outlook and approach as I accomplished just one simple project at a time. As I obsessively crocheted, I told myself, “If you can do this, it’s time that we approach your meds and life differently.” I began to change my mindset, just by simply crocheting a few scarves.

By 2019 my list of diagnosis went like this: Early Onset Dementia, Interstitial Cystitis of the Bladder, PCOS, Endometriosis, Fibroids (Although, I did have to dispose of all those unnecessary female parts in 2018 because my Uterus had grown 7 times the size that caused the permanent damage to my bladder), Chronic Inflammatory Response, Edema, High Blood Pressure, Fatty Liver, High Cholesterol, Fibromyalgia, Paresthesia of my Veins and Carotid Arteries, Tremors, Seizures, Osteoarthritis **There may be a few more that I had forgotten.**

Green Coffee Extract provides a great source of polyphenols for your brain!! Energy!